Now then, please forgive my vanity, but I’ve noticed a strange new phenomenon. People on the street are actually checking me out … me! It’s hilarious! Builders in vans have been smiling at me at traffic lights, security guards in shops are engaging me in conversation and completely random people are looking me up and down. I know that unwanted attention can be a royal pain in the arse, but at the moment I’m really conscious of this (does it happen to normal women all the time?) and actually quite enjoying it. People I don’t know look at me and think I look nice … that is incredibly flattering having spent years shuffling along, draped in fat clothes, trying not to be noticed by anyone.
You wait, I’ll be moaning about lecherous old perverts in a few days’ time, I bet you …
Jokes aside, it occurred to me the other day that this diet makes you very self-obsessed. You think about what you are doing and, more importantly, how you look for the vast majority of every day. And I don’t know if this is just me, but I’ve had endless conversations with people about the diet, and how I feel, and what I’ve lost and blah, blah, blah, blah. Am I turning into the incredible boring woman? Am I risking becoming incredibly vain? I do hope not. I wonder how long it will take for me to stop talking and thinking about this diet. By my calculation I’ll be done with the final management phase by the end of September … but after that will I spend the rest of my life saying ‘I used to be extremely fat, you know’, or getting into tedious discussions about what people eat and why? In short, how much of a long-term impact will this diet have on me? It’s a bit peculiar that my ‘note to self’ will have changed from ‘try not to hate yourself too much’ to ‘try not to love yourself too much’, because nobody likes someone who’s full of themselves.
And on that note, I’m going to take my vain self clothes shopping to look in some more mirrors 🙂